" People say they are drawn closer to God, seeing my strong faith. Is this not deceiving people? Every time I have wanted to tell the truth, 'that I have no faith', the words just do not come, my mouth remains closed. "
" So many unanswered questions live within me afraid to uncover them ...because of the blasphemy ...If there be God ...please forgive me. "
" When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives & hurt my very soul. I am told God loves me ... and yet the reality of darkness & coldness & emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. "
" One day I met a lady who was dying of cancer in a most terrible condition. And I told her, 'You know, this terrible pain is only the kiss of Jesus, a sign that you have come so close to Jesus on the cross that he can kiss you'. "